In this life of circumstantial pretences and pseudo images,
YOU have no idea who I AM!
There's a waking, breathing, dreaming SOUL in this body…
One that is tainted, and tortured, by YOU.

When I wake in the morning,
My eyes are tormented by the reverberating
Rays of the sun, that scavenge through my bottomless secrets,
FORCING me to retreat deeper into my most comfortable darkness.

I've always dreamt I was living alone in this world,
Constantly looking into the face of tomorrow,
Never yearning for the scent of today.

In this rhythmic UN-REALITY,
This world of hurt and ignorance…
Where worldwide Oneness takes form in bombs and captivity,
Where over population is softly strangling us,
And no one is EVER really free…
I have realized I shouldn't be SO naive…

WHO, can we ever really believe?

MY darkness extends such depth…
As words of a difference skim my armored heart,
As sacred mala beads sing mantras to my ignorant ears,
I am not swayed by your desire to ALTER me.
I am doing just fine in this private little world of mine.

Come, sit across from me and sip upon my
Master plan as I steal my eyes away from the truth.
Don't use me to pour you a cup of understanding
from the ocean of my head.
Let me share with you my daily invocation,
"EVERYTHING IS PERFECT!"

I am held by the strength and character of my deepest darkness,
Struggling, striving for the numbing concoction that
Eases the constant ticking in my veins
This ticking is a reminder, I KNOW…
Of my inability to scratch off the winning ticket
To my salvation.

Falling faithfully into the illusionist's
Laboratory of mind screwing capabilities,
I am held captive in a blanket of conditional coziness.
I am in control.

This mask I carry, was meticulously constructed to surpass the
Frozen time conglomerates and the PAIN
That TWITCHES behind my EYES,
DRIPS down my NOSTRILS,
And INFECTS my EARS.

This mask is the cure to YOUR problems, YOU see.
Because with THIS mask,
I AM who I think YOU want me to be.

This was NOT in my CONTRACT,
I DID NOT sign up for THIS!
Can YOU hear me????
Have you EVER heard me????

From the view of a dream of a dream,
My darkness streams its poison from EVERY corner of my soul.
Firmly in place, with shackles and rules,
I am TRAPPED and dazed by this THICK maze.

I JUST want to RIP AWAY this rusty mask,
PURGE these layers of GLUE,
And SURRENDER to this false, backstabbing craze!!!!

Can you see me???
I'm in here,
Beneath this beautifully tragic facade,
Placated by endless dreams of fiction, and fear,
Playing battleship with the molecules of love that surround me.

THIS is the sound of terror…

This is my silent scream for awakening,
Please help me eradicate all of the FAKING!