There is no Answer

By Heather Fraser

Most of the time when I am out for my daily hikes I receive what I can only name as "downloads" of information or insight. It's like I become a free bird, released from my cage as soon as I hit the outdoors and begin to move my body. This is my time away from writing, parenting, driving, daily chores and responsibilities. In the great outdoors I am set free where my Spirit infinitely expands and I become a fully open receiving instrument.

I never intentionally ask for this to happen, and it still throes me for a loop when I all of a sudden realize I am thinking thoughts that are far beyond anything I would normally be thinking in the everyday ordinariness of my daily life.

And so I walk. And I breathe deeply. And my heart dances with the all my faithful nature friends — the trees, the sky, the wildflowers, the butterflies, the grass, the wind. I'm at home here, and safe, and unhurried. I open like a flower and receive God's grace.

Suddenly I am aware that I'm thinking the thought, "The seeker seeks forever and never truly lives. The knower knows there's nothing else and therefore only lives." I really like this thought, but find myself doubting if it's simply something I've read before that I'm just remembering, or is this my innermost self speaking to me? Wherever it came from I am carried along into a vast silence of nothingness.

This nothingness is pure creative potential. It contains no answers, only choice, only stillness, until we make a choice about something we want or long for. Then a glorious cosmic dance of movement begins.

Do I go this way or that? Do I create this or do I create that? Do I take this job or that? Do I love this one or that? We want answers to our questions. We want to feel right. We want to know we've done the right thing. We want to know for sure. We pray to God to give us the answer. But mostly, we want someone or something else to tell us what to do. We don't want to be responsible for our choices.

And yet choice is the only thing we have. If we are willing to be completely honest with ourselves, it's not an answer we truly want, but sweet relief from the paralysis of not choosing, of not being able to make a decision.

There is no answer out there to anything. Once we can grasp this deeply within our being, we can begin to see that in the vast cosmos of nothingness or cosmic intelligence or benevolent source of All, we are responsible for putting in our order. To this, and only this will we get a response. To ask the divine for the right answer or the right thing to do, is to clearly deny our power as masterful creators. If the divine could speak to such a request I'd imagine it would say something like this, "I have no answer to give you. I am your humble servant. Whatever pain or joy you hold within your heart, whatever lack or abundance you dwell upon in your mind, this is what I will bring to you. I know nothing else but to move in the direction of what you feel It is your energy of thought and feeling that awakens me into service to you, as your humble servant I am loyal to whatever energy your thoughts and feelings are requesting. I am not here to give you answers. I am here to simply give. I am here to fill your orders. I am incapable of judgment. I know no right or wrong, good or bad. I only know how to give. I am the silent nothingness that only moves to create upon your request."

If I am filled with fear of loss and pray to God for anything from this panic driven state, God will simply fill my order by reading my feelings and I will receive more fear of loss. And yet if my car was careening out of control, and in that moment of fear I let go and surrendered to God knowing there's nothing else I can do, and from that place of absolute clarity and strength I prayed for safety, safety would surely be bestowed upon me. This is our power! But we must learn to commune with this Cosmic Intelligence, we must learn to be humbled by it's benevolence towards us, we must learn to have reverence for its ability to only give, expand, increase, and we must learn to do these things not for Its sake, but for our own, for whether we learn these things are not, we will receive. Do you want more humility, reverence, increase, expansion or lack, isolation, pride, or restriction. YOU are the decider. YOU get to choose.

In the world I grew up in, God had all the answers and I was supposed to know nothing. As adults, I think most of us have felt the comfortable malaise of not having to feel responsible for the problems in our lives. It's so easy to say, "It's Gods will," and let the focus fall on something outside of ourselves. We must be able to admit to ourselves that this way of thinking has made it very easy to live without accountability for our thoughts and actions.

This is the crossroads we are standing at in our evolution as individuals and as a whole. The majority of mass consciousness still believes in an all-knowing God. We still feel more comfortable relinquishing our power to something or someone outside of ourselves despite the massive world screen of suffering and imbalance that we view each day caused by such a belief. To transform into the true divinity of who we are will bring great discomfort and a shattering of comfortable illusions, but only if we choose to resist the truth. To be able to look in the mirror of Gods light and say, "Yes, I see. I see the places within myself that have hardened and grown cold. Yes, I see how my allegiance to my own self-hatred has kept me separated from the truth of my divinity. Yes, I see how my heart and my mind are miles apart and how my mind feels more comfortable to live in. Yes, I see that to live in my heart would bring me to my knees with the agony of knowing how false I've been, how much I've hurt myself and others, how ignorance of my divine nature has created and contributed to all suffering and imbalance. Yes, I see that if I could only go there and feel that pain and let it run out of me that my mind and heart would melt into one. Yes, I see that then I would be free to create anew."

No one is going to save us from our pain and suffering, and this is a big mind shift to adjust to because deep down inside us all, we've been taught to give our power away to parents, teachers, governments, doctors, authorities, and a false idea of God. The statement, "God helps those who help themselves," takes on a whole new meaning when we begin to take personal responsibility for our lives and stop seeking and searching for answers. God is us, and therefore we must help ourselves.

What's it going to take to see that we are the ones creating our world! It's not an angry God punishing us for our sins! It's an angry us creating every single moment based on our ignorance of the divine, how things work, and who we really are.

To end all seeking and simply live is to release the cork that's been wired to the champagne bottle of our soul and allow the sweetness of our true, authentic selves to burst forth in a spray of joyful relief. What else is there to do than to share our inner world of soul with the outer world of others? This is our holy work. We are the champagne. We must be uncorked. We must be poured. The time has come to celebrate who we are.

Copyright 2009 Heather Fraser — www.heatherfraser.com Ontario, CANADA

About Heather Fraser

Heather Fraser, born December 30, 1962 in Toronto, moved to Africa at the age of 9. It was here that Heather began to understand the connection to all living things and come to know the grace and wisdom of both the natural and esoteric world. Her healing, infinite journey of transformation has lead her to the richest, most sought after destination anywhere — home — to the soul. This place of deep awareness and self-acceptance of her special gifts of sensitivity, empathy, and intuition has given her all the passion and inspiration needed to write and teach what she has learned about honoring the Self and nurturing the soul — the true purpose of our existence. Heather specializes in counseling, re-educating, and profoundly validating those that are highly sensitive, intuitive, empaths, helping them to accept these traits as the gifts that they are and to express them proudly and shamelessly.

She is a gifted, prolific, successful published writer, poet, and speaker with a readership spanning the globe, as well as a Reconnective Healing Practitioner, a Level III Touch For Health Practitioner, and a former Holistic Nutritional Consultant, RNCP. Heather is the proud mother of a daughter she names Sage, who is also a highly intuitive, sensitive empath. They live together in Ontario, CANADA with their lazy cat and hilarious lovebird. For more information, or to contact Heather, please visit her website at www.heatherfraser.com